Maine, NH, and miscellaneous musings
We leave Bangor after picking up Princess at the vet’s. She’s shown no symptoms during her overnight stay, which is a good thing, we think . . . but then the next day she’s in obvious distress, so we make an appointment with the neurological vet specialist in Portland, Maine for Wednesday morning. During the exam, the vet tells us Princess is having focal seizures; the problem could be meningitis or a mass on the brain;there’s a certain kind of tumor Boston Terriers are more prone to develop, she says. She recommends an MRI and possibly a spinal tap to diagnose the problem. We leave Princess at the vet where she’ll be anesthetized for the tests, and go to downtown Portland, where we wander around through the Public Market and the art and craft shops in the Old Port, have lunch, wander some more, call the vet at 2 p.m. as instructed, and are told to come by at 4:15 when she’ll be ready to be picked up and the vet will explain what she found.
The news is not good: Princess has a mass – a glioma – on the right side of her brain. The recommended treatment is steroids, bromide and chemotherapy, which may slow the growth and buy some time, but won’t eliminate the tumor. Like most pet owners, we’ll do anything to ease her suffering as long as her quality of life will still be good. The vet assures us it’s what she would do for her own dog, so we leave the animal hospital with a happy Princess, a bag full of medications, several sheets of instructions, and heavy hearts. I take Princess for a walk that evening and she is her normal self – no signs of weakness or deficits. But later that evening she sways unsteadily as she stands, like a drunken dog. In the morning I give her the first of her twice-daily prednisone tablets and 3 chemotherapy capsules, which fortunately she gets only once a month. We’ll have to get blood tests done once a week for the first month to make sure her white blood count hasn’t dropped too low. Today, after her morning walk and her medication, she’s lethargic and disinterested in anything. We let her sleep and take it easy. I guess there’ll be no more tug of war with her blanket – she used to love that game . . .
On Tuesday we go to Freeport, Maine, a little seacoast town with outlet and factory shops for The Gap, Banana Republic, Lenox, L.L. Bean, Anne Klein and assorted other name brands. I manage to resist the urge to scoop up some real bargains at The Gap and Bass. I spend some time at Edgecomb Pottery, where the pottery, jewelry and other crafts are local, unique and exquisite, and leave emptyhanded. But at Steve’s urging, I go back on Thursday morning before we head down the road and buy the bowl I wanted.
Wednesday, June 1
After our day in Portland and the disheartening news at the vet, we return home. I take Princess for a walk and she seems to enjoy it. When it’s time to make dinner, I look around in our pantry and freezer for something simple, and decide on pasta – angel hair with a sauce made of canned organic plum tomatoes, kalamata olives, artichoke hearts, canned water pack albacore tuna and feta cheese, seasoned with onions, garlic, olive oil, red wine and a dash of oregano. With crusty bread (the last of what we bought in Montreal), it’s a flavorful and easy meal – and best of all, we have leftovers.
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We are on our way to Hampton Beach, New Hampshire, where we’ll stay one night before driving on to Abington, Mass., a suburb south of Boston where my sister lives. We’ll park the motorhome at her house for four days or so and stay with her while visiting with her and Christopher, our son, who lives in Quincy. Christie’s kids are excited about staying in the motor home – they’ll pretend it’s a rock star tour bus - and we’re looking forward to sleeping in a bed with more than 6 inches of space between it and the wall.
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I wish I could say I’ve been incredibly productive and creative during our journey. I wish I could say that I read all of Shakespeare’s plays, learned to speak Spanish like a native, and finished a 16”X20” counted cross stitch picture. I wish I could say I wrote 15 chapters of the Great American Novel. I wish I could say I’ve scrapbooked every place we’ve stayed and every historical site and national park we’ve visited. I wish I could say any or all of these things . . . but I’d be lying. I’ve been a vegetable, a mindless sponge. I have been absorbing the scenery, learning about the history and historical figures in every city or area we visit; I’ve been reading a lot . . . but I have NOT been prolific, industrious, inspired or inspirational. I should feel guilty about this, I guess . . . but why? I’ve been enjoying the trip, the places we’ve seen, the people we’ve met and everything I’ve learned along the way. This is a journey of rejuvenation, a revitalization of ourselves. It is not a guilt trip. I’ve spent enough time during my life guilting myself, flogging myself for what I should have done, should have been, should have said. No more – it’s unproductive, unpleasant and pointless.













